The one thing I have noticed about life since I have really started living it, is there will always be stress. There will always be deadlines, bills your trying to pay, things your trying to save for, places and people you are trying to get to, etc.. It is enough to keep us all tensed up, telling our selves " I'll be happy and have some fun once "BLANK" is done with. But it's bull shit. What I am coming to realize is if we spend our whole life waiting to rejoice when the storm passes, we will never look up to see how beautiful the rain is . Yeah, My car is broken down, Yeah I had an absurd amount of court fines holding me back this month, but it's July. And I'm in love.I have a good job with good people where on most days, I make good money. I laugh. I dance. I socialize. I have family and friends who never get tired of me. so my days off are always full. I am healthy. I'm not a drug addict. I am a dependable employee and I make an effort to PAY all my bills. Three years ago I could not have said most of these things. Life is a process. Life is a journey.
On my last group therapy session a woman asked the counselor " How long until it's better? (until my goals are reached and people trust me ?" To which her reply was" How long it takes, is how long it takes."
It made me think. And my response to her is, isn't realizing and practicing the change enough? That is all we have control over. There will always be things we want to change, fix, improve. IF there wasn't life would be BORING! Can you imagine two weeks from now everything you wanted, worried about, etc. was EXACTLY how you want it in life. There was no problems, you had no worries or stress.... then what? Sure the first month may be amazing, but after that.... THEN what?
I hope I make some sense with all this. But To be cheesy, Life really is in the journey. :)
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